About You Now

Friday, October 11, 2013

Hello Lovelies,

Today's post is different from the norm, but I felt I couldn't not write it. If you have followed my blog for a while or been subscribed to or watch my You Tube Channel you will know that in 2007 I lost my lovely friend Donna to cancer, I do have a blog post all about Donna and if you would like to read that you can find it here.

Today is the 6th anniversary of Donna's death, she passed away on 11th October 2007, and I felt I couldn't let today go by without writing this post, I have spoken about Donna in lots of my video's and also about her gorgeous little girl Hannah who is my other little girl and I'm her adopted Mamma, Cole and Lissy are big sis and bigger sis and she is a massive and very important part of our lives and always will be.

I'm not going to write about losing Donna or our friendship, I did that in the post I mentioned above but I will say that 6 years is a long time, in some ways it has gone so fast but it feels like a lifetime since we sat and had a good chat and laughed together. A lot of things have happened in the 6 years since Donna died, things she would have loved to be part of, and I know she would love the whole You Tube and Blog thing and would have been in many of my video's, and if they have the Internet in heaven I'm pretty certain she'll be watching and no doubt laughing at me.

There isn't a lot I can say really apart from today is a sad reminder that life is cruel, I miss Donna and think of her every day, and I wish more than anything that things were different but they aren't, I will continue to do my best for Hannah and she will always be my other little girl and I am looking forward to looking for prom dresses and wedding dresses and doing all the things I promised her mum I would do because she wouldn't be here to do them, Donna was devastated at leaving her children and wanted more than anything not to, it broke her heart and I know she prayed she would live even just until Hannah was 18 but unfortunately her cancer had other ideas, and although I won't ever be Hannah's mum (and would never try to be) I will be the very best adopted Mamma there is and I know one million percent that when we go prom dress hunting or wedding dress shopping that Donna will be watching us, after all she was the biggest shopaholic in the world, now you know where I got it from!

Some of the very last memories I have with Donna are of us dancing in the hospice to the Sugarbabes song About You Now, for some unknown reason it became "our song" and if it came on a music channel or the radio we danced to it even if it was bed dancing as it became towards the end of Donna's life.

Sleep well my lovely angel, I miss you more than you'll ever know and I love you lots, keep sending those feathers.

This ones for you.

Donna Marie 1969 -2007

Thank you for reading, much love

Zoe x

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